Do you ever feel this way? How were you received- truthfully...Give a good and a bad experience

You know what sucks? When you finally open up and share to people who are suppose to care for you or have your back, that you've been raped by someone in "your fold" and "those" who say they "love" you, dis you altogether. That's so WRONG! 


It takes so much courage to finally share it and to be dissed or dis-friended, that is just not love, kindness, or care- total stupidity. 
This happened  to me!


It's hard for me to trust women or men... I was sexually assaulted by a bisexual gal who was my best friend years ago, assaulted by so called "boyfriends" and whoever, then teased and ridiculed by women, as well as men, - And men,  they just tell you what they think you want to hear, then you start  to trust them and open up just to get used and dumped!  I'm getting to the point I just don't like too many people anymore- to be close friends with. 


Being abused and neglected growing up doesn't help in the trust category either. I just basically, don't believe people - only Jesus. He only doesn't lie or fool me. Even my own family members blatantly lie or be secretive to me. 


Does anyone at all feel this way or am I alone feeling this way?